29th October 2015
Day+ 1 year and ½ a month!
(I wrote this back in October and didn't get around to posting but I still wanted it included - hence the funny date!)
On this date one year ago we began the long journey home and
I still remember it so well.
I was so excited to be coming home to Belle and Seb, it had
been so hard to be away from them for 5 long weeks. Even though being in Moscow and going through
treatment was an amazing and life changing experience, it was excruciating
being away from the kids.
I was so excited, so excited... I kept counting down the hours... every time
I finished food, finished a movie, finished a little sleep, went to the toilet,
changed planes I would look at my watch and calculate how long to go. And then we finally touched down in Brisbane
and I had tears of excitement until that was taken away. The reserved wheelchairs had been snapped up
by other passengers so myself and another lady had to wait what seemed like
forever for them to bring a couple. I
remember Paul kept looking at me to check if I was okay, I was not okay but as
always my pretend face kicked in and determination not to fall kept me going
and then we were on our way.
But then it took what seemed like forever again to get out
bags and through customs, longest wait we’d had at any airport to Moscow and back. Then finally through and their faces waiting
with mum & dad, I was so happy to be home.Then there was the flipside of being excited to see the kids, I was terrified of leaving the hospital. I’d gotten through treatment with not to many hiccups and had been so very happy with the care by Dr Fedorenko, Anastasia, the nurses and all the other staff. I really didn’t want to leave my safe bubble. I really didn’t want to go out and deal with the germs of the world that for sure!!
Roll on 12 months now and here I am, here I stand, here I
walk so well and feel so much better than I have for years. The world is brighter, there is light in my
eyes again (so Paul tells me). Life is
amazing!!
Here in Brisbane we have Jacaranda trees and they only bloom
once a year. They are these beautiful
purple flowers and they really don’t stay on the tree very long and make a mess
of the yard and roads but they are so beautiful that you can forgive the mess
they eventually make. Anyway point of my
story is they are flowering now so they will remind me each year of my “new
life”. Not quite the purple iris that is
the symbol on our pin but beautiful all the same. I’ve also found and I may have said this
before that I feel like I’m seeing things for the first time. We’ve lived here for 4 years now and I’ve
noticed the Jacaranda in our next door neighbours yard but I’ve never
appreciated its beauty or how many there are around the city – I’m just loving
looking everywhere again!
